Christianity

Would the world be a better place with out christianity? Well, if I wasn't a christian it wouldn't even be worth it. I don't want to die with nothing to look foward to after life. Nor do I want to go to heaven doing what ever I wanted to do. If it wasn't for christianity I would be a down spirited person because I would have no soul. I would hate people and want to do teturous things to people. The world is not a place to be without guidience. So I look to God because I know he leads me to do good and that he wants be to obe the best I can ver possibly be. And because of that I do good onto others and most of the time treat others how I would want to be treated.
I want to be a saint believe it or not. Lord knows I'm not a saint. No where near. When I try to do good I do bad things when I trying to be good. So I keep being as kind as I can be and as generous as I can be. It seems as if people don't care about when I try to be good, so I decided i'd go kill myself. But in the Bible it said i'd go to hell, I don't want to take no chances so I decided not to take my life. And when I wanted to kill others, God's word stopped me. Even when I wanted to "Do it" I felt watched by God so I didn't do it. I know at least 7 kids who didn't commit suicide just because of the Bible said. I know people who didn't kill someone because they thought God would handle it.
Revenge is a big thing that christians are not supposed to do. Therefore, a good christian would try to forgive or forgive someone no matter wha they did. They would just say, "God will deal with you, I will not do anything." I seen it on the news and on movies all the time. On movies based on true staories even. They say, "I won't kill so-and-so bescause God told me not to." So do you still think that the world would be a better place with out chritstianty?